Again another day with Bad start

3 Hrs sleep.....woke up at 8 am.....didn't done any thing from morning except talking on phone & looking car deals....let see what is in the luck.....I have kept my all options open & this may cause me in choosing one good option for me....its 2 am & no study. Family have left decision on me whenever I want to go back that I have to decide now. A virtually single man project, how long I will be able to work in this kind of environment....working at offshore is worst then here.....IT is the crap...if IT is crap then what next?

What I want from life?

Its morning 4:44 AM....I dont know why I am not going to sleep....If I am not sleeping then why I am studying? Seriously I don't know....If I want to grow then I need to study further....for that I need to prepare...but still after knowing all facts I am wasting my time.

I am so confuse that I am not able to make a single decision that when I need to fly back to India. Daily I think in a different direction & not be able to make any decision.

May be the cause of this all confusion is the comfort zone in which I am living. Job secuirty, money security...don't know why I am not making 1 decision.